Dear Pov,
With this message, I hope you will understand what I’m thinking about you and what I’m doing for you. Well, even the time is so short for me to know you, but it’s doesn’t mean too late. Looking and thinking has been engraved in my mind to what you are doing. Even I know the wall is too high to climb up, but my heart is higher than that. It’s so sure that one thing I can’t do is to pass the exam of your parents and you.
To be frank, sometimes I think I can pass it, but I have to ignore the deadlock toward what I don’t want to do in that way. It makes me so reluctant to that life. Ability is possible, except the financial capacity. I think if my status is rich enough, it’s nothing difficult to cater you and your family, especially your parents, they will consider over my objectives. It’s sure that you told me everything is dependent on your parents’ decision, I know that is what you cannot accept my love.
It’s extremely exact that I am all over of you, which I can’t set my heart at rest besides telling you the truth and finding the solution. Oh, nothing is getting better due to my humble status. Sometimes I don’t care about it, but it approaches me.
I know I don’t have anything to compete with you if comparing to the family status, but I do know that what I can give you is to be helpful, honest, understanding, and talking with you and what I can extra do is to live with you, to take care of you and to worry of you. Fortunately or unfortunately, my life likes the cricket’s breath living like the shadow of the sun. Therefore, what I always dream in my life about is to think of you, to be pity about you, to miss you, to be worried with you and the last is to love you wholeheartedly and honestly.
With this message, I hope you will understand what I’m thinking about you and what I’m doing for you. Well, even the time is so short for me to know you, but it’s doesn’t mean too late. Looking and thinking has been engraved in my mind to what you are doing. Even I know the wall is too high to climb up, but my heart is higher than that. It’s so sure that one thing I can’t do is to pass the exam of your parents and you.
To be frank, sometimes I think I can pass it, but I have to ignore the deadlock toward what I don’t want to do in that way. It makes me so reluctant to that life. Ability is possible, except the financial capacity. I think if my status is rich enough, it’s nothing difficult to cater you and your family, especially your parents, they will consider over my objectives. It’s sure that you told me everything is dependent on your parents’ decision, I know that is what you cannot accept my love.
It’s extremely exact that I am all over of you, which I can’t set my heart at rest besides telling you the truth and finding the solution. Oh, nothing is getting better due to my humble status. Sometimes I don’t care about it, but it approaches me.
I know I don’t have anything to compete with you if comparing to the family status, but I do know that what I can give you is to be helpful, honest, understanding, and talking with you and what I can extra do is to live with you, to take care of you and to worry of you. Fortunately or unfortunately, my life likes the cricket’s breath living like the shadow of the sun. Therefore, what I always dream in my life about is to think of you, to be pity about you, to miss you, to be worried with you and the last is to love you wholeheartedly and honestly.
Many everlasting talks with you are making me more love you and think of you, but the thing I can do for you I think is nothing. I want you to be good and to know all work and everything. I think I can do very less for you. Sometimes I hate myself why I can’t do everything for you for the person whom I love. Nothing getting better than this!?
To see you talking honestly like this, I feel strongly hopeful and nothing to do besides talking honestly you, loyal to you. What I have talked are all true things in my life, which I’ve never told someone else. This I just want to tell you that all words and all things I said are not everybody know.
Hey Pov, I was headache for a few days as you have seen, because I have been thinking of you. Sometimes I think too much I know, but if I don’t think, it’s nothing happened.
If you want to find love, it is nothing to do with the forest or the mountains or the caves. It’s only in the heart. So I have to think about it, because I am a man. It has its own language of experience. There is a great difference between concepts and direct experience. With a glass of hot water, whoever puts his finger into it will have the same experience –hot- which can be called by many words in different languages. Similarly, whoever looks deeply into the heart will have the same experience, no matter what his nationality, culture, or language may be. If in your heart you come to that taste of the truth, of love, then you become like one big family –like mother and father, sisters and brothers –because you’ve tasted that essence of the heart which is the same for all. For me, I know I just need a true life, true love, and true story, even before I don’t care about it, but now it’s different after getting to know you, you are the one whom I can think of, take of, and worry about.
To tell you the truth, everything that I do I must do with clarity and awareness as I love you, this is after my decision with wisdom. That’s why, I talked with you that I don’t think my thoughts are wrong. When I see clearly, there will no longer be any need for enduring or forcing myself. Nevertheless, I have difficulties and burdens because I miss the point. Peace comes from doing things completely with my whole body and mind. Thing that is left undone leaves me with a feeling of discontent.
One more thing that I am going to tell you too is that most people just want to perform good deeds to make merits, but they don’t want to give up wrongdoing. It’s just that “the hole is too deep”. This I want to talk about the ladies in AV.
Suppose there was a hole and there was something at the bottom of it. Now anyone who put his or her hands into the hole and didn’t reach the bottom would say that the hole was too deep. If a hundred or a thousand of people put their hands down that hole, they’d say that the hole was too deep. No one would say that his or her arm was too short! We have to come back to ourselves. We have to take a step back and look at ourselves. Don’t blame the hole for being too deep. Turn around and look at your own arm. If you can see this, then you will make progress on the spiritual path and will find happiness.
Sometimes, I think that things happen I do not want things I want do not happen, why!? I always ask myself about this. As the story of mine, before I don’t need love, but it happened and right now it do not happen when I need love as I need you.
Everlasting talk, I am very ashamed to you, however, I’m happy to talk with you.
To see you talking honestly like this, I feel strongly hopeful and nothing to do besides talking honestly you, loyal to you. What I have talked are all true things in my life, which I’ve never told someone else. This I just want to tell you that all words and all things I said are not everybody know.
Hey Pov, I was headache for a few days as you have seen, because I have been thinking of you. Sometimes I think too much I know, but if I don’t think, it’s nothing happened.
If you want to find love, it is nothing to do with the forest or the mountains or the caves. It’s only in the heart. So I have to think about it, because I am a man. It has its own language of experience. There is a great difference between concepts and direct experience. With a glass of hot water, whoever puts his finger into it will have the same experience –hot- which can be called by many words in different languages. Similarly, whoever looks deeply into the heart will have the same experience, no matter what his nationality, culture, or language may be. If in your heart you come to that taste of the truth, of love, then you become like one big family –like mother and father, sisters and brothers –because you’ve tasted that essence of the heart which is the same for all. For me, I know I just need a true life, true love, and true story, even before I don’t care about it, but now it’s different after getting to know you, you are the one whom I can think of, take of, and worry about.
To tell you the truth, everything that I do I must do with clarity and awareness as I love you, this is after my decision with wisdom. That’s why, I talked with you that I don’t think my thoughts are wrong. When I see clearly, there will no longer be any need for enduring or forcing myself. Nevertheless, I have difficulties and burdens because I miss the point. Peace comes from doing things completely with my whole body and mind. Thing that is left undone leaves me with a feeling of discontent.
One more thing that I am going to tell you too is that most people just want to perform good deeds to make merits, but they don’t want to give up wrongdoing. It’s just that “the hole is too deep”. This I want to talk about the ladies in AV.
Suppose there was a hole and there was something at the bottom of it. Now anyone who put his or her hands into the hole and didn’t reach the bottom would say that the hole was too deep. If a hundred or a thousand of people put their hands down that hole, they’d say that the hole was too deep. No one would say that his or her arm was too short! We have to come back to ourselves. We have to take a step back and look at ourselves. Don’t blame the hole for being too deep. Turn around and look at your own arm. If you can see this, then you will make progress on the spiritual path and will find happiness.
Sometimes, I think that things happen I do not want things I want do not happen, why!? I always ask myself about this. As the story of mine, before I don’t need love, but it happened and right now it do not happen when I need love as I need you.
Everlasting talk, I am very ashamed to you, however, I’m happy to talk with you.
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